The Bridge.

I want you to imagine an island. This island contains: School, Stress, Chores, Bills, Your House, Family and Work. This island is just average. Nothing really special. You want something new in your life. Something beautiful. Life changing. Now, imagine another island of in the distance, that is un reachable. This island holds: Happiness, Trust, Confidence, Laughter, Friends, Hope, and an un shakable bond. Next, in between the two islands is a bridge. This bridge is the missing link to you getting to that second island. You drive across the bridge and immediately feel a warm sensation across your skin. It is like nothing you have ever felt, and you never want to leave.

The first island represents your life, and your conscious state. It represents all of the things in life that come naturally. It represents not just life, but what you don't chose to have. Things that come no matter what. The second island represents your subconscious state. It represents a place that you feel safe in.  It represents a life that you can live in forever and that makes you the person you are today. That island is the best thing to ever happen to you. Now the bridge. The bridge represents Friendship. Without that one bridge in your life you can never reach that second island. 

Often you make mistakes and in life and that leads to that second island going away. It sinks for a moment. The less you want to go to the second island, the less you use the bridge. The less the bridge is used, the weaker it gets, until you have to repair it manually. 

You have heard the phrase "You've already burned that bridge." No going back. You have already made your decision. You have to be careful what you do in life, because often that bridge can burn without you knowing it.

P.S Sorry this has been on such a delay. I am going to start writing more. Build back my blogging bridge.

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There's A Danger In Starting A Fire - A Day To Remember

we've got our fingers crossed

our fingers crossed

that's the danger in starting a fire

you'll never know how many bridges you'll burn

Sometimes:

Sometimes I forget to look back at how far I've come. Sometimes I forget to look back on how much I have to be grateful for. Sometimes I forget to be the positive person, I strive to be. 

Sometimes, I forget the fact that I have so many people on my side. When people say rude things to me at school, or over the internet, I forget how many people think the opposite. I feel like more people need to think this way. More people need to realize how many people are right next to them, rooting for that smile on their face. Maybe what we need to realize is that our enemies are the ones who tell us honestly how they feel. They are the one of the only individuals that can be completely open about their opinions. Strive to realize that our enemies are the ones who give us the chance to be ourselves. Fight against what people tell you they don't like. You are yourself, and that is why you have so many people that smile when you walk into the room.

High school has changed so many people. Some for the good and some for the bad. What I have realized is that, if I stand up for myself, people only have two options. They can either take me as I am, or watch me as I go. They can walk all over me, or help me up. Don't let this cruel world get you down. I can guarantee you are loved by so many people. Keep your chin up. I know you are beautiful. 

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I'm made of Wax Larry, What are you made of?- A Day To Remember

Everybody's out to get me.

Any moment could be my last.

This is me, you can take it or leave.

Right or wrong

I will stand on my own two feet.

Just breathe.

2011 - Dedicated to everyone who has taken me here.

See that world out there? Yeah, I am taking over.

Sometimes, I take criticism too lightly. Sometimes, too heavy. When I try too hard, I have heard people notice. I heard from one of my very best friends, that she "misses" the way I was. The band t-shirts. The vans. She misses the person I was before I changed, to who I am now. Not that this isn't a good person, but it isn't what she is used too. 

I have thought a lot about they way I am. The way I need to be. Who I want to become. What I have decided is that the only way I can be both, is to find a balance. To find a way of being myself, but still be everything my dreams have been set on. I have decided to find a way to be everything I have wanted to be. My deepest dreams are being fulfilled, but it hurts just as equal, to see my old self lost. The old self carried me to a place that I could not be grateful for. The beauty that this life offers is nothing I could have seen before, but I never wanted to change, until I realized what was happening to myself. I am growing. Truly I am become something I have always wanted to be.

My resolution for this year is to go back in time, to before I tried. To become more of my natural self, with a higher self esteem and a better self image. I am out to prove everyone that told me I couldn't, wrong. This is my deepest dream. So. Walk with me, and see what my eyes have seen. Take my hand and let me show you what it is to love. How to end this war. 

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Searching, Seeking, Reaching, Always. - We Came As Romans

And every end is just the start to something else.
I think that if we ever stopped seeking out
what it is that keeps us growing,
then we'll never stop searching for the piece.
The heart that will keep us loving.

I'm always searching for

I'm always searching.
This path's not easy to walk upon.
I'm always seeking.
Knowing that I'm eager to carry on.
I'm searching, seeking, reaching for something more.
I'll be better than before.
Reaching for something more

This is my life story. GO WATCH THIS

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7Hih-AI48Zs&feature=fvw

Why I am the way I am.

          

 Change will not come if we wait for some other person or some other time. We are the ones we've been waiting for. We are the change that we seek.

- Barack Obama

Assuming you have met me in person, at first glance, you can automatically see, that I am not like a whole lot of other girls. I have different hair. I wear a t-shirt, everyday. I wear vans, and usually skinny jeans. Next, you come speak to me and realize that I am NOTHING like anyone you have ever met. I understand you. I feel every emotion you have, and am aware of the help you need. I am one of the most companionable people you know, and have the heart of a teddy bear. If you spend any time with me, you realize I have a potty mouth, but don't talk behind peoples back, unless I am standing up for them. You realize this, but have never noticed it before.

Why am I this way. I ask myself this question almost every day. What has made me the person I am becoming. What has shaped me, so i cannot fit into any mold. What makes me see you different than everyone else. What happened that was so insignificant that you changed every way I thought.

Bleh.

When I was five years old, my parents got divorced. It was probably one of the most life changing moments in my life. I dress the way I do, most likley because i was raised with my brother and my dad. I grew up with all boys in the house, and in fact can remember going to school with my pants on backwards.  I couldn't have asked for a better childhood. I love my dad for everything he has given me, and for the chance he gave me to live here, with my mom. I love you pops.

I moved to Utah: Honestly, three things happened within the first 2 years of me living here. I joined a church. I found god, and found that I am really smart. These things have changed a lot recently as well. Often people think he is someone I don't have a relationship with, but the path I took to find him, is not a path i will run backwards on. I found him, and he is here. I still find myself, loving my education, and valuing it. 

I had(have) these two friends, Janie and Alexa. Literally my entire life revolved around secretly playing Barbies, and talking about our "burn book." We used to play house, and teenagers. I was always into having an imagination, and being creative. I took up playing the guitar around 9, and have really found myself in it.

 

Pretty much in 6th grade, i had this boyfriend forever, and he was a sweet soul <3 I still love him.

Around 7th and 8th grade, I started junior high. Just like anyone else who starts school in the ghetto, you see the drug & alcohol world, like nothing else. 7th grade I watched one of my friends drink until she was sick. I have seen, and done things that, although I am not proud of, make me who I am. This is a big part of everything. I have a past, and it's not like I want to talk about it, but in order for me to go on, you must recognize that 7th and 8th grade changed me. I contiued through, and became someone who nobody should become, but everyone does, for one period or another. I got really depressed and suddenly started forgeting everything. I was pretty much just this little depressed, emo, gothic kid.

I moved out to Herriman, the summer before 9th grade started, and literally had no friends. I felt like a fish on a sushi plate, so weird. I would drive back to my old neighborhood, and stay for weeks at a time. I hated it out here, I was so ready to start school. I started school and instantly realized i was in mo-mo town USA. I hated it. So much. My grades were good, but that was because I never talked to anyone. I wasn't making friends for a while. I hated it. Some point between the year, everything turned around. I got to know people. I started hanging out with friends. I felt a little more at home. Between January and March, two of my friends killed themselves, and I found one of my bestfriends, to this day. Everything about those two months is so blurry, yet so clear. I stopped hating. I changed eveything. I found someone in my life, that I still look up to. She has been one of the biggest inspirations I have, and everything we have gone through, has brought me to who I am. I could never thank her enough. 

THIS IS WHEN I STARTED GOING TO A LOT OF SHOWS!

9th grade came and went, and although I learned a lot, I was ready to start highschool.

 

Sophomore year, I wake up. I see the world, brand new. Everything is different. Tons of friends. I knew things would be good. Debate starts. Things get 100X better. Me and Kendra become friends, things become  500000X better. Seriously.

Everything has led up until now. You know I am not the same person I was a year ago, and that is something I couldn't be prouder of. 

Please continue this journey with me.

<3

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2nd sucks

You're afraid, 

like I make my deals with the devil.

You've been at it for years 

but couldn't reach that next level. 

Let's keep it real, 

this is no competition to me. 

Even if everyone around you acts 

like they don't see.

Is anybody else listening? 

Outta sight, outta mind 

is what you'll always be. 

I hold my cards to my chest. 

I laid my life on the line 

so I expect nothing less from you.

I speak the truth, 

and everybody else knows it. 

So set your ego to the side 

and just get the fuck over it!. 

Can't waist my time 

on hateful people like you. 

So keep wishing you were me, 

and I'll keep making you have to.

Is anybody else listening? 

Outta sight, outta mind 

is what you'll always be. 

I hold my cards to my chest. 

I laid my life on the line 

so I expect nothing less from you.

I just cant believe 

its really come to this 

because without me 

you would not exist.

Hey hey 

still got somethin left to say. 

Only one in the world 

I depend on is me. 

I need nothin from no one 

I take what I need. 

Get ahold of yourself 

and keep away from me.

Is anybody else listening? 

Outta sight, outta mind 

is what you'll always be. 

I hold my cards to my chest. 

I laid my life on the line 

so I expect nothing less from you.

PRAY

Pray for Ashley Mcadam, and her family. Pray for everyone.

Incentives and Love.

          I came to this eye opening realization, that without and everyday incentive, I don't do this whole, "share your feelings with the world regardless of what they think" thing...some people call it blogging. I decided that although sharing my feelings is important, going out and seeing the world, and gaining those feelings has become more important. I want to keep blogging, but seeing this world, with my best friends right next to me, literally takes my breath away. I am living the life I used to dream about as a kid. This is all I have ever wanted. Having the friends I have, has made this life, exactly what it is cracked up to be, and more. Reaching for the incentive of being happy, living this life to the fullest is in full swing.

This is the love I knew I could feel.

Love holds no records of wrongs.

Lou Cotton: We Came As Romans 

See you soon Lou.

Have fun with the Aussie's 

By far, the funniest thing I have seen in a minute or two.

Going to see BMTH, with WCAR, and ADTR on MARCH 29th 2011.

Lets hear it for the four letter acronym bands..

                                              Donate to the Hearts of Gold, over their >>>>

Imagination - Delaney

Imagination is a cool thing. We can become whatever, whoever, and go where ever we like just as fast as we can think. Children are masters of it. But as we grow, we're conditioned to believe that dreaming and believing in things that are not right in front of us is pointless. It's not. And maybe these things really are right in front of our eyes, maybe close enough to touch. It's a simple law of attraction, when your playing your fantasies out in your head, and generating the feelings of what living it would be like.. you're attracting these things into your life. Dream, and believe, and think positive thoughts and your life can turn into whatever you want it to be. 

But, that's just a little philosophy coming from a 15 year old. :D

-Delaney

This is has been in the works for too long, and  by letting a guest blog happen, I feel I am showing you that i am not the only person with out stretched outlooks on life. Live out your deepest dream. Imagine a world, the way you want it. Be whoever you want to be. Stand for what is right, in your heart. We are all humans and deserve to be renewed. To change our ways. To be aloud to choose.

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Imagine - John Lennon

Imagine there's no countries
It isn't hard to do
Nothing to kill or die for
And no religion too
Imagine all the people
Living life in peace

You may say that I'm a dreamer
But I'm not the only one
I hope someday you'll join us
And the world will be as one

Imagine no possessions
I wonder if you can
No need for greed or hunger
A brotherhood of man
Imagine all the people
Sharing all the world 

Hearts of Gold.

         

 Every nine seconds a women is abused due to domestic violence.

As winter rolls around, we are all looking for ways to help, for ways to donate, and for a way to make an impact. This is your chance to seize that opportunity and I urge you to do what you can.

Hearts of Gold is the name of our school winter charity drive, and had the kick off Assembly today. As much as it hurts to say it, that Assembly got me excited for all of he activities and chances we are going to have to help, and to earn for our charity. The Charity the student government chose was, The South Valley Sanctuary. The SVS is a domestic violence shelter, for men, women and children dealing with cases of domestic violence and abuse. This is our chance to help. Our chance to reach out. Our chance to raise awareness for the generations to come.

As a school, we have come together, with a cause in mind, to help as many people as we can, and to raise the money that these people need. The things they need most include, baby formula, personal care items, clothes, kitchen items, diapers and shoes. 

What can I do to help. What can WE do to help?

I know times are tough and money is tight, and only the necessities are being purchased. 

If you can just donate 1 dollar, that would help. If you donate 50 dollars, that would help. Any donation is appreciated, and all proceeds will be given to my school, for this charity.

Thank you, and Happy Holidays.

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The button is located to the side bar, on the right.

Thanks again from all of us at HHS and at the SVS.


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Your Time Is Up. (11.30)

         

  That's right.It's the 30th of November, which means i am done blogging for November! I have had a count down now for 5 days. I am finally done, and without you guys, i wouldn't have this awesome smug smile on my face. A smile that represents pure joy for everything i have told you, and how much of it has been received. The love and hope you guys bring me, makes me so grateful for this life, and for the chance i have to coexist with you people. This experience has taught me so much, about life, and all of the things in it.

           A lot has changed in the past 30 days. New Friends. Lost Friendship, regrowth of the love i knew i had always felt. Over this past 4 weeks, I have seen growth in my friends, and in the way i see them. I can tell i have changed, but not for you, for myself. I have become the person i aspire to be. Someone who loves you, regardless of anything anyone says about you. 

          I want to take the time, to tell you about my next project. As the holidays are coming around, I always become so thankful for all of the things i have, and makes me so sad for the people who are less fortunate. I feel like the holiday season, needs to be more about, giving to others. Not the ones who already have a warm coat to wear, or a bowl of soup to eat. But the people sleeping outside on these bitter nights. Everyone is full of joy and laughter, and i feel an obligation to fill every ones spirit, not just the ones i am friends with. Everyone deserves to feel this feeling, of the holiday season. 

         I challenge you to give up some of your used things this winter, and donate food to the food banks. I challenge you to show me what you are doing. 

      I am going to blog, as often as I can, about the things i am giving, making and showing people. I want to spread the message of love, and hope. Hopefully, by giving someone something, i can show them, that this holiday season, can be good, and the love i have for them, can make a difference. 

     I challenge you to be a part of charity. 

Read the blogs you didn't read, and confront me about any new topics you want to be discussed. 

Something crazy is going to happen on December 9th. Get ready.

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Strength in Numbers - In Fear and Faith

I am who I am, is that so hard?
To realize that we are who we are
You can't live your life, hoping you were wrong
You can follow us and join the thousand strong

And as we gather together
To face the ones who oppose us
We have one thing left to say.

Your time is up now, this is our world.