They named her Rachel.

 I feel because this is myself, i cannot give any information because i truly do not even understand myself.

Because i try to be myself around everyone i meet, most of these questions are pretty self explanatory. If you are reading this, and don't know me well, please don't judge me. Get to know me. And if you know me very well, please continue to get to know me.

Keep Breathing, Keep Living, Keep Loving.

I was once lost, but now i am found.

Tell me, what makes you, you?  - I can’t really say what make me, me, for I can only say what I am trying to become, a better person. Someone who is smarter, more loving and less judgmental.

What is your outlook on life, where are we headed? You can only tell yourself where you are headed, but I know I am headed to a better place. With more love, and understanding.

How would you describe life in one sentence. Were here, and the rest is up to you.

What is love? The commitment to be there, no matter what. To care for someone, all the time.

Who do you look up to? For sure my sister Shanna. She is my hero. But also my friend, you know her, Kiwi. She is someone who really has shown me the way to be, and even though we may not be so close right now, i know that without her i would be different.

Also, We Came as Romans.

and really..Everyone..

Have you been ‘in love’?  No. But, I have loved. Many times.

Where do you see yourself in 10 years.  Better than I am now. Bettering yourself is what gives you the will power to become better than that.

What is your biggest pet peeve?  I have 2. When people chomp there gum or make repetitive annoying noises.. Even though I do it myself. When people say rude things about other people, we are all equal. All as one.

Best memory:  I would have to say the Asking Alexadria/ We came as romans concert. I cried. It was beautiful.

Favorite clothing line? Band T-Shirts? Haha.

Favorite come back line?. Oh really?

What hurts you most?  When the love is gone.

How would you describe, Beautiful?  Something you see as outstanding.

What, takes your breath away. When people are nice and willing to get to understand my very strange view points on life.. It is so uncommon. And when it happens, I usually don't tell you.

Favorite thing about high school? Making new friends and being able to be whoever I want to be

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If you were to change the way of the world in one way, what would it be and why? I would make people

 less judgmental, so that everyone could live in harmony.

Favorite genre of music: Oh you know? Hardcore.

Favorite actor/actress.  Adam Sandler is a good one.

Inspiration? Who do you get it from. Everywhere. Especially music and friends.

Swearing? Yes or No.. I have been found guilty, too many times.

Musically talented?  Slightly

Favorite quote? “You miss 100% of the shots you don’t take” – Wayne Gretsky. I live for opportunity. It makes us who we are.

(No Regrets, by the way)

Who is one person that you have met recently that you have really found a lot of interest in? Kendra (:

She is that one senior who as soon as i saw her in my jesus class i knew, i knew, i knew i had to get to know her, and here i am now, always awing at her leadership skills and the absolute willingness she has to put everything before herself. She is a perfect example of what i'd like to become.

Kids names: Oliver Alan. (Dad)

Shaun Nathan.(Brother, Sister) Kacey Amanda (?)

Color, what is your preference? Teal

Favorite food?  Sushi (:

What do you dream of? Two nights ago was about me swimming up a river, trying to push me the other way, with a bunch of fish going both directions.

I guess i have nothing else to say, but take me as I am, or watch me as i go.

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Ignorance- Paramore.

If I'm a bad person, you don't like me
Well, I guess I'll make my own way
It's a circle, a mean cycle
I can't excite you anymore
Where's your gavel? Your jury?
What's my offense this time?
You're not a judge but if you're gonna judge me
Well, sentence me to another life

Me, Changing. It's an ever growing wonder.

 "I haven’t woken up everyday seeing the world the way I do now. I used to wake to a broken world. With a broken dream. A broken future." - Rachel Maretsky

                Imagine knowing you’re different, knowing that nobody view things the same as you. Knowing you can see past the surface. Knowing that you know the power every individual holds within them.  You get along better with adults and tend to act more mature. (Most of the time) 

You have a better sense of commitment to having a healthy social life. You have made an ever growing promise to love and not hate. To become better then what the world has told you to be. To become more than what anyone says you can be. To become, what you have aspired to be.

               

It’s like the world took my eyeballs and gave me different ones.  Sometimes I feel I don’t deserve the ones I have. Sometimes the beautiful things I see, I cannot appreciate the way I need to.  It’s as if I see everything, different. My mind is a mind field for analogies. Sometimes, I can’t handle it all. I usually feel overwhelmed.  I often forget I am lucky to see this way.

              

  I find something positive in everyone. You can look up or you can look down, but truly the choice is up to you. You can view this world, the way I do. But, it’s a choice. Being negative is harming. We must see the world getting better instead of getting worse.  Have hope in the place you are 

headed, because you do control your own destiny.

                Not all find the way I am changing, a good thing. Some are so stuck in their ways and beliefs they are too selfish to see I am becoming a better person for myself. A better person, in the eyes of the non selfish.

                I love. Not hate.

                I respect. Like you deserve, like everyone.

                You have my everything, until you take advantage.

                I will always listen. Always.

                I am on opportunist. I take the chance. Good or Bad.

                I accept consequences. I know I have to.

                I will open my heart very easily. Please don’t spit into it.

                If the way I’m changing offends you, please take a step back, and wake up.

                Take me as I am, or watch me as I go.

                I will always be myself, nothing less.

An Ever-Growing Wonder - We Came as Romans

So when I stare back into my own eyes
I try to peer past, and try to understand.
My imperfections compose my composure
and I can live with them and you will live by me.
So let us restore each other, not with haste, but gently,
for an empty cup, an empty cup cannot fill another 

Chili, our greatest analogy.

              

Let me give you a slight preface for this post. About, two weeks ago I was talking to Sydney Lancaster about some problems i have been having when this analogy came to mind. It came so easy to me. I hope you enjoy.

            (Chili can represent anything, life, love, friends, dreams, family, relationships. Anything!!)

So you decide you want some Chili. You are very excited to make it and eat it. So you head right to the store. Your are at the store, and that is just a pain in the ass. You hardly even want to be there, but know the outcome will be great, so you keep chugging through. You get home, and start chopping the onion and just start crying. At that point you are seriously just considering throwing out the whole idea because it hurts so bad. Then you put all the ingredients in the pot, and literally have to wait forever. It takes so long you don't even know if it is going to be worth it. You finish the chili and put it in your mouth, at that moment you realize that all the pain was worth it. That this is the best damn chili you have ever had in your mouth. Ever.

           Because i can relate this topic to so many things, i just want to say, that through anything, life gets better and the we need to be grateful for the beauty that surrounds us. By opening up the door to opportunity you are bettering the chance that life is going to improve. Having the chance to be happy, is something that nobody can take away.

If you are determined to do something, or become someone, then you have nothing stopping you. You are the master of your own destiny.

Never Lose Sight Of The Goals- For Today

Keep your head up high
And never lose sight
Of the goals.
We will never give up.
(Never lose sight, of the goals within us)
We will never give up
And He will never back down.
Seek and live everyday
To never worry what he'll say.
He will never back down.
It's not ours, to decide.
Shake it, move.
In the end there will be no doubt.

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Her name is Kiwi, like the bird.

       

Hailey Dawn Thomas. That is her name. She is one of life's greatest. Hailey is mis-understood by many, but loved by all. Hailey has a spirit about her like nobody i have ever been around. Hailey and I have had our ups and downs but, we quickly turn around. Hailey is one of my very best friends and is the ONLY one that knows absolutely every secret i have. Every one. Hailey and I have only been friends since spring of 2010 but are quickly and rapidly becoming a beautiful friendship. Her name is Kiwi, like the bird...(and the fruit) I love you Fruit Cup. Forever & Always. 

                                               This is absolutely 100% her un-censored words. 

                    What makes you, such a fruit? What makes you, you? : I am a fucking hipster. And love is, it's what I got.

What is your outlook on life? Where are we headed?: I don't have an outlook on life. I have a way of life. A simple yet, powerful strategy. I am hear to learn and grow, as I believe all of us are. Positivity is what works. You can look down or you can look up. I choose to look up. I believe if less people stop trying to be so fucking perfect and fit in to damn society, then the world would be a better and more positive place to be. I can't speak for everyone, so i cannot say where we are headed, but i myself am headed for happiness, love and positivity. But, that's coming from a fruit.

What is love?: Love is what kills the world.

Love is what heals the world.

Love is our weapon

Love is what encourages and destroys

the thought of perfection

Love is love,

a beautiful thing.

Who do you look up to? : Anyone who is willing to make me a better person in life. Everyone is striving to be better so we are all looking up to the same thing. We are all equal.

Have you ever been 'in love'? : Only with music.

Where do you see yourself in 10 years?: Respected, Loving and giving some sick ass tattoo's.

What is your biggest pet peeve?: Disrespect. I can't stand it.

Best Memory?:

Mario Salas (happy birthday) <3

..When I got that tattoo on my ass.

Favorite clothing line?: Urban Hipster, and TOMS

Favorite comeback line?: Get out of my kitchen....bitch.

What hurts you the most?: Watching love be denied.

What takes your breathe away?: San Fransisco sunsets.

Favorite thing about high school?: Being involved.

If you could change the world in what way, what would it be and why?: Discrimination. If you take out discrimination, you can actually appreciate what people stand for.

Music? What's your style? I am an indie rock kind of girl

Favorite actor, actress, or in your case, musician?: The Beatles, Christofer Drew, and my girl Katy Perry. OH! and of course Zoey Deschannel. (I would go lesbian for her and I absolutely jizz in my pants every time i see her beautiful face on that tv screen)

What inspires you? Nature.

Swearing, how do you see it? At the right time, fuck yes.

Musically Talented?: You tell me? But musically involved? Always

Favorite quote? LOVE IS OUR WEAPON

Recent friendship that has forever changed your life? Austin Weir. (My everything....Princess Rajah)

Kid Names?: Hollywood

Sunny Ray <3

Moon Dusk.. lol

and Hanes is my backup.

Favorite color? : Burgundy

Favorite food?: Thai Food. (Kiwi is a vegetarian, BTW.)

What do you dream of?: Lol, Austin naked?........

Drugs, Alcohol..Every touch them?: No..

That my dear friends is my fruit. I love her. She is my hero. My best friend. And my inspiration.

Happy- Nevershoutnever! (:

You make me happy whether you know it or not
We should be happy, that's what I said from the start
I am so happy knowing you are the one
That I want for the rest of my days, for the rest of my days
Through all of my days

You're looking so cool, you're looking so fly
I can't deny that when I'm staring you down right dead in the eye
I wanna try to be the person you want
The person you need, it's hard to conceive
That somebody like you could be with someone like me

             

Personal Appearance, its obvious IDGAF!

If you have EVER met me in person, you know that I truly could care less what the hell you thought about what I was wearing. You know that. You know most of the time I am wearing a band t shirt and some god awful skinny jeans. You know that most of the time my hair is messed up, and I have very little make up on. You know that I am kinda chubby. You know that I wear 10,000 ugly bracelets and you know that I could give a flying flip what you thought!!!! (i do love you)

This whole idea came about around midnight when Delaney Anderson told me about her ghetto Orange Hair! Now, Delaney loves her hair like she loves John Mayer (There D, Your J.M reference), so you know, this was a big deal.

Being beautiful isn’t wearing, whatever you think is in style, it’s wearing what you look good in and being your absolute best self. (Obviously this true for me, I don’t care) Do you think that wearing some sexy shirt is going to get you a good grade, a good job or make you a truly better person? You know, probably not. Life is not about what you look like. I get that. Obviously.

Being comfortable with you are, is more important then what people think. I think that if you enjoy who you are, and happy with whatever is in your life, then you should be okay with whatever you want to wear.

Often people think that wearing what is “trendy” is the best. Sometimes trends are cute, sometimes.  I tend to wear average stuff I guess. Nothing to flashy. Just a t-shirt. Some people hate it. But, hey I don’t care. What I do think is cool is clothing with a good cause. Buying Haiti t-shirts, to support the Haitian’s, good cause. TOMS SHOES, one for one, giving shoes to children in need. Good cause. Do what is right for you, and if helping people is in that process, good for you.

I am writing this late at night, and can’t even imagine what I look like right now. So do the high-school unthinkable, DON’T CARE!!

I'm not afraid - Eminem 

When I say 'em or do something I do it, I don't give a damn
What you think, I'm doing this for me, so fuck the world
Feed it beans, it's gassed up, if a thing's stopping me
I'mma be what I set out to be, without a doubt undoubtedly
And all those who look down on me I'm tearing down your balcony

Why Love, not Hate?

  

 You'd think this question would be one of the easiest, and most simple to answer. Well, some days it is. But others, it is much harder.

                     "I don't hate, it's just not an emotion I have." - Sydney "Chili" Lancaster

    As I have told many of my friends, which is easier? With hate you have to try. You have to avoid the person/thing. You can't repair other friendships as easily when you have hate in your system. We are all special and deserve love. No matter what.

   But, Love? It comes so natural, like water to the sea. You can be anywhere and be happy. You don't have to be dis clued, because there is nobody you can't stand to be around. Love is what makes our world go round.

   "Everyone has haters, even Jesus" - Kiwi Dawn Thomas

-When someone hates you, it's hard. You continually question you actions to find out why they hate you. One day you may out, maybe not. But really, them hating YOU is absolutely 100% their loss. If they don't want to like you, or want to try to like you, then it should jut make you more willing to love everyone. If you know what hate feels like, then you know love is better.

Now, hating is also very easy, and hurtful. So we must be careful. Hating someone, and hating someones actions is different. A person may say something or do something that you don't like, but that doesn't mean you hate them.

Pointing out negative, bad qualities in a person usually takes more time than finding new ones everyday that you love.

The opposite of love, is not hate, it's indifference.

On the surface hate is easier. In the long run, love lasts.

Love will drive us further than hate.

Hate is learned. Love is given freely.

Hate is rejected. Love is accepted.

Hate is so common we use like water. Lets go in a drought.

-So simply love, is easier.

I will never hate you. I will always loves and respect you.

An Ever Growing Wonder - We Came as Romans

So let us restore each other,
not with haste, but gently,
for an empty cup cannot fill another.
A blank canvas will later be priceless,
and the love that we build will be endless.
Though we all stumble, we will not fall.