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Why I am the way I am.

          

 Change will not come if we wait for some other person or some other time. We are the ones we've been waiting for. We are the change that we seek.

- Barack Obama

Assuming you have met me in person, at first glance, you can automatically see, that I am not like a whole lot of other girls. I have different hair. I wear a t-shirt, everyday. I wear vans, and usually skinny jeans. Next, you come speak to me and realize that I am NOTHING like anyone you have ever met. I understand you. I feel every emotion you have, and am aware of the help you need. I am one of the most companionable people you know, and have the heart of a teddy bear. If you spend any time with me, you realize I have a potty mouth, but don't talk behind peoples back, unless I am standing up for them. You realize this, but have never noticed it before.

Why am I this way. I ask myself this question almost every day. What has made me the person I am becoming. What has shaped me, so i cannot fit into any mold. What makes me see you different than everyone else. What happened that was so insignificant that you changed every way I thought.

Bleh.

When I was five years old, my parents got divorced. It was probably one of the most life changing moments in my life. I dress the way I do, most likley because i was raised with my brother and my dad. I grew up with all boys in the house, and in fact can remember going to school with my pants on backwards.  I couldn't have asked for a better childhood. I love my dad for everything he has given me, and for the chance he gave me to live here, with my mom. I love you pops.

I moved to Utah: Honestly, three things happened within the first 2 years of me living here. I joined a church. I found god, and found that I am really smart. These things have changed a lot recently as well. Often people think he is someone I don't have a relationship with, but the path I took to find him, is not a path i will run backwards on. I found him, and he is here. I still find myself, loving my education, and valuing it. 

I had(have) these two friends, Janie and Alexa. Literally my entire life revolved around secretly playing Barbies, and talking about our "burn book." We used to play house, and teenagers. I was always into having an imagination, and being creative. I took up playing the guitar around 9, and have really found myself in it.

 

Pretty much in 6th grade, i had this boyfriend forever, and he was a sweet soul <3 I still love him.

Around 7th and 8th grade, I started junior high. Just like anyone else who starts school in the ghetto, you see the drug & alcohol world, like nothing else. 7th grade I watched one of my friends drink until she was sick. I have seen, and done things that, although I am not proud of, make me who I am. This is a big part of everything. I have a past, and it's not like I want to talk about it, but in order for me to go on, you must recognize that 7th and 8th grade changed me. I contiued through, and became someone who nobody should become, but everyone does, for one period or another. I got really depressed and suddenly started forgeting everything. I was pretty much just this little depressed, emo, gothic kid.

I moved out to Herriman, the summer before 9th grade started, and literally had no friends. I felt like a fish on a sushi plate, so weird. I would drive back to my old neighborhood, and stay for weeks at a time. I hated it out here, I was so ready to start school. I started school and instantly realized i was in mo-mo town USA. I hated it. So much. My grades were good, but that was because I never talked to anyone. I wasn't making friends for a while. I hated it. Some point between the year, everything turned around. I got to know people. I started hanging out with friends. I felt a little more at home. Between January and March, two of my friends killed themselves, and I found one of my bestfriends, to this day. Everything about those two months is so blurry, yet so clear. I stopped hating. I changed eveything. I found someone in my life, that I still look up to. She has been one of the biggest inspirations I have, and everything we have gone through, has brought me to who I am. I could never thank her enough. 

THIS IS WHEN I STARTED GOING TO A LOT OF SHOWS!

9th grade came and went, and although I learned a lot, I was ready to start highschool.

 

Sophomore year, I wake up. I see the world, brand new. Everything is different. Tons of friends. I knew things would be good. Debate starts. Things get 100X better. Me and Kendra become friends, things become  500000X better. Seriously.

Everything has led up until now. You know I am not the same person I was a year ago, and that is something I couldn't be prouder of. 

Please continue this journey with me.

<3

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2nd sucks

You're afraid, 

like I make my deals with the devil.

You've been at it for years 

but couldn't reach that next level. 

Let's keep it real, 

this is no competition to me. 

Even if everyone around you acts 

like they don't see.

Is anybody else listening? 

Outta sight, outta mind 

is what you'll always be. 

I hold my cards to my chest. 

I laid my life on the line 

so I expect nothing less from you.

I speak the truth, 

and everybody else knows it. 

So set your ego to the side 

and just get the fuck over it!. 

Can't waist my time 

on hateful people like you. 

So keep wishing you were me, 

and I'll keep making you have to.

Is anybody else listening? 

Outta sight, outta mind 

is what you'll always be. 

I hold my cards to my chest. 

I laid my life on the line 

so I expect nothing less from you.

I just cant believe 

its really come to this 

because without me 

you would not exist.

Hey hey 

still got somethin left to say. 

Only one in the world 

I depend on is me. 

I need nothin from no one 

I take what I need. 

Get ahold of yourself 

and keep away from me.

Is anybody else listening? 

Outta sight, outta mind 

is what you'll always be. 

I hold my cards to my chest. 

I laid my life on the line 

so I expect nothing less from you.

PRAY

Pray for Ashley Mcadam, and her family. Pray for everyone.

Incentives and Love.

          I came to this eye opening realization, that without and everyday incentive, I don't do this whole, "share your feelings with the world regardless of what they think" thing...some people call it blogging. I decided that although sharing my feelings is important, going out and seeing the world, and gaining those feelings has become more important. I want to keep blogging, but seeing this world, with my best friends right next to me, literally takes my breath away. I am living the life I used to dream about as a kid. This is all I have ever wanted. Having the friends I have, has made this life, exactly what it is cracked up to be, and more. Reaching for the incentive of being happy, living this life to the fullest is in full swing.

This is the love I knew I could feel.

Love holds no records of wrongs.

Lou Cotton: We Came As Romans 

See you soon Lou.

Have fun with the Aussie's 

By far, the funniest thing I have seen in a minute or two.

Going to see BMTH, with WCAR, and ADTR on MARCH 29th 2011.

Lets hear it for the four letter acronym bands..

                                              Donate to the Hearts of Gold, over their >>>>

Imagination - Delaney

Imagination is a cool thing. We can become whatever, whoever, and go where ever we like just as fast as we can think. Children are masters of it. But as we grow, we're conditioned to believe that dreaming and believing in things that are not right in front of us is pointless. It's not. And maybe these things really are right in front of our eyes, maybe close enough to touch. It's a simple law of attraction, when your playing your fantasies out in your head, and generating the feelings of what living it would be like.. you're attracting these things into your life. Dream, and believe, and think positive thoughts and your life can turn into whatever you want it to be. 

But, that's just a little philosophy coming from a 15 year old. :D

-Delaney

This is has been in the works for too long, and  by letting a guest blog happen, I feel I am showing you that i am not the only person with out stretched outlooks on life. Live out your deepest dream. Imagine a world, the way you want it. Be whoever you want to be. Stand for what is right, in your heart. We are all humans and deserve to be renewed. To change our ways. To be aloud to choose.

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Imagine - John Lennon

Imagine there's no countries
It isn't hard to do
Nothing to kill or die for
And no religion too
Imagine all the people
Living life in peace

You may say that I'm a dreamer
But I'm not the only one
I hope someday you'll join us
And the world will be as one

Imagine no possessions
I wonder if you can
No need for greed or hunger
A brotherhood of man
Imagine all the people
Sharing all the world 

Hearts of Gold.

         

 Every nine seconds a women is abused due to domestic violence.

As winter rolls around, we are all looking for ways to help, for ways to donate, and for a way to make an impact. This is your chance to seize that opportunity and I urge you to do what you can.

Hearts of Gold is the name of our school winter charity drive, and had the kick off Assembly today. As much as it hurts to say it, that Assembly got me excited for all of he activities and chances we are going to have to help, and to earn for our charity. The Charity the student government chose was, The South Valley Sanctuary. The SVS is a domestic violence shelter, for men, women and children dealing with cases of domestic violence and abuse. This is our chance to help. Our chance to reach out. Our chance to raise awareness for the generations to come.

As a school, we have come together, with a cause in mind, to help as many people as we can, and to raise the money that these people need. The things they need most include, baby formula, personal care items, clothes, kitchen items, diapers and shoes. 

What can I do to help. What can WE do to help?

I know times are tough and money is tight, and only the necessities are being purchased. 

If you can just donate 1 dollar, that would help. If you donate 50 dollars, that would help. Any donation is appreciated, and all proceeds will be given to my school, for this charity.

Thank you, and Happy Holidays.

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Thanks again from all of us at HHS and at the SVS.


THE DONATE BUTTON IS OVER THERE ...............^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^

Your Time Is Up. (11.30)

         

  That's right.It's the 30th of November, which means i am done blogging for November! I have had a count down now for 5 days. I am finally done, and without you guys, i wouldn't have this awesome smug smile on my face. A smile that represents pure joy for everything i have told you, and how much of it has been received. The love and hope you guys bring me, makes me so grateful for this life, and for the chance i have to coexist with you people. This experience has taught me so much, about life, and all of the things in it.

           A lot has changed in the past 30 days. New Friends. Lost Friendship, regrowth of the love i knew i had always felt. Over this past 4 weeks, I have seen growth in my friends, and in the way i see them. I can tell i have changed, but not for you, for myself. I have become the person i aspire to be. Someone who loves you, regardless of anything anyone says about you. 

          I want to take the time, to tell you about my next project. As the holidays are coming around, I always become so thankful for all of the things i have, and makes me so sad for the people who are less fortunate. I feel like the holiday season, needs to be more about, giving to others. Not the ones who already have a warm coat to wear, or a bowl of soup to eat. But the people sleeping outside on these bitter nights. Everyone is full of joy and laughter, and i feel an obligation to fill every ones spirit, not just the ones i am friends with. Everyone deserves to feel this feeling, of the holiday season. 

         I challenge you to give up some of your used things this winter, and donate food to the food banks. I challenge you to show me what you are doing. 

      I am going to blog, as often as I can, about the things i am giving, making and showing people. I want to spread the message of love, and hope. Hopefully, by giving someone something, i can show them, that this holiday season, can be good, and the love i have for them, can make a difference. 

     I challenge you to be a part of charity. 

Read the blogs you didn't read, and confront me about any new topics you want to be discussed. 

Something crazy is going to happen on December 9th. Get ready.

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Strength in Numbers - In Fear and Faith

I am who I am, is that so hard?
To realize that we are who we are
You can't live your life, hoping you were wrong
You can follow us and join the thousand strong

And as we gather together
To face the ones who oppose us
We have one thing left to say.

Your time is up now, this is our world.

My sister, stronger than the rest. (11.29)

My sister is, everything the title says. She is stronger than anyone else I know, and has everything anyone would ever want, even if she doesn’t know it.

My sister goes to school full time, works, has a son, has a social life, a family that loves her and still fits in being awesome. 

Shanna and I have been close for as long as I can remember. We have so many inside jokes, it is almost unbearable. ( Right Captain Kinky?) We have a lot in common, and understand each other really well. She teaches me more than I even know it. She teaches me to respect my family, and other things. She teaches me that  my life is up to me, and by her example I can see the outcome of different choices she has made. She shows me how to love. She inspires me to live out my deepest dream.

She gives me advice like the sink gives you water. She is always helping me with homework, and I have returned the favor a few times. (I still don’t get math, regardless of how many times I teach her.) She is going to become a respiratory therapist, and is going to graduate very soon. So on top of all ^ that awesomeness, she is going to keep people breathing. MY SISTER LITERALLY SAVES LIVES.

My sister is a mom. Through her actions, and recent choices, her being a mom has been different than everyone else, just for a while. She knows that nothing is permanent and that everything she is doing is only for the benefit of her son. She knows what she is doing is, although hard, the right thing and will eventually pay off. More than she knows it.

If you think your sister shows up my sister, at all…prove it. This is the best living example of hope, and faith on the face of the earth.

You are my hero.

I love you Judas.

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Working Class Hero- Green Day/ John Lennon

There's room at the top, they're telling you still
But first you must learn how to smile as you kill
If you want to be like all the folks on the hill

A working class hero is something to be

If you want to be a hero, well, just follow me
If you want to be a hero, well, just follow me

Be Here Now (11.28)

            Living in the moment is something that i have always tried to do. By being "here now", I am paying attention to what is going on now, and loving the things that are going on, now. By living in the past, or in what happened before, you are living with things you can't change. This life is only what you make it, and by living here, you are going to be able to look back, and be proud of what happened, and how you lived your life.

             If you sit back, and watch your life go by, because you are more caught up in what happened, or what is going to happen, your going to miss what is happening. Your going to miss out on the life that you wish you had. If you had the chance to live your life, any way you wanted to, would you? If you had the chance to control the outcome of your life, would you? If you could be happy with the choices you made, would you? If you could take hold of any opportunity, would you? YOU CAN! You can do anything you want to, and only if you life in the now. The future will and can only be controlled by what happens now.

         Be Here Now. Remember what is going on, now. Love your life, now. Remember the good times you've had, but be here now. Good times come and go, but if you live in the now, you will always be aware of what is going on.

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Ray LaMontagne - Be Here Now

Don't let your soul get lonely child

It's only time, it will go by

Don't look for love in faces, places

It's in you, that's where you'll find kindness

Be here now, here now

Be here now, here now

Don't lose your faith in me

And I will try not to lose faith in you

Don't put your trust in walls

'Cause walls will only crush you when they fall

Dreams (11.27)

       

 “Dreams are illustrations... from the book your soul is writing about you.” - Marsha Norman 

     We go to sleep every night, with all that happened that day on our minds. We try to push it all to the side as we drift, into a place of peace, a new place every night. Somewhere that you can create things the way you want them, and make your world a better place. You may fret sleeping, because the dreams you have aren't happy, and maybe are scary. Maybe all you want to do is sleep, because that place you go, is better than the world you live in, when the sun is up. Maybe your dreams are interpreting to you something, a bigger picture than what you can see, in the daylight.

Wishing to remember the dreams you have, is one of the hardest things on this planet. Trying to re-tell your epic adventure, and giving it, in all of its glory, is a hard task, harder than just plain remembering it.

I hear about people dreaming different ways. In color. In black and white. Half and Half. People who only get to see parts. People who run through there dreams. People who don't dream. People who live a more vivid dream life than anything in real life.

Dreams sometimes show us the things we need in our life. Pay attention. Maybe someone is trying to tell you something.

         Live out your dream, the deepest ones always seem the hardest, give it a shot.

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Dreams - We Came As Romans

This is not what we were made for.
Far from the compassion we have known.
Far from the love that we have shown.
He tells me that love will endure all things.

I know that you are forever my brother.
Here I struggle with you my brother.

He tells me that love endures all things.
and I'll have you know
I'll have you know...

This is my
This is my deepest dream.
This is how I show you my love.
Beloved let us love one another
This is my deepest dream.

Blank Check. (11.26)

            

I bought the new "What Separates Me from You" CD today along with POP GOES PUNK 3! These jams are rocking. I urge you to go support A Day to Remember and the sick bands on PGP3!! (:

That's all for today.

Much Love

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Sticks and Bricks - A Day To Remember (What Separates Me From You)

I’m making a difference, I’m taking a chance
(A chance)
You can say what you want about me
But no one can tell me I can’t

Thanks Bro. (11.25)

           Happy Thanksgiving.

Today, is the day we look onto all of the things we are thankful for, and for all the great things we have. We are so lucky to be able to live in this country, and to live out our deepest dreams. We should be thankful for our famlilies and friends, and all of the people who make our lives worth living.

As I think about thanksgiving, I think about how, especially on this day we look back to think about all of the good things in life. I think we need to be thankful EVERYDAY for all that we have. I think that being thankful for what we have, is something that can truly show everyone how happy we are to have them in our life.

This life we live is only what we make it, and if you make your life something to be great full for, you need to show the ultimate appreciation for it, everyday. So many people give up there life, because they think it is the only option, and I am here to tell you, Life does get better, but i can't make it get better, we must all work as one to improve our lives. The love I have for everything in this life, is like nothing i can explain to you..

I am so great full for all the beautiful things in life <3  Happy Thanksgiving. Go stuff your beautiful faces <3

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Homesick - A Day To Remember

Everything around me seems so much different than where I'm from

And at this rate I think my fate's been sealed

This life's so unpredictable

We'll go continue to live a life that no one knows

Where's this gonna go?

Family (11.24)

            

This blog needs more than it is going to get, but if your reading it, thank you.

             This weekend, I am in Arizona, and am going to try to kick out a sick blog tomorrow, but for today, i just want to leave you one thought. Love your family. They brought you here, and they only want the best for you. They love you, and they deserve to have your beautiful light and inspiration in there life. I am great full for my family.

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Jack Johnson - Better Together

We're better together 

Inspirations (11.23)

People ask me what inspires me and what makes me who I am. The answer to this question is really hard because, everything inspires me, in one way or another. Everything I see makes me think about who I am, and who I am becoming. Often, people inspire me. Not always the people you think either. Sometimes, it is the kids who bully, or are rude. Not just to me and my friends, but to my teachers and other adults that deserve (respect.)

The following people mean something to me, and continue to teach me every day. If you are not included in this list, you still mean a lot to me, these are just the ones sticking out in my head right now.

Shanna Maretsky: My sister, the one who has been there for me literally since day one. Someone who I look to for answers, and help not only with things like homework, and future decisions, but with problems with friends and family. Issues I cannot go to other people with. She is my hero, to keep pushing forward, and to be here now.

Hunter Bingham: Your 6, be glad you’re on the list. At such a young age, this young man’s wit gives me strength. He shows me the good parts in life. He teaches me to still live as a child and to play, have fun and be awesome. I love you h.k.

Kendra Larsen: Kendra shows me that you can literally have a smile on your face the entire day. You can be serious and have fun. You can be smart, and fun. Kendra teaches me that, true friends do still exist. She gives me the chance to trust someone. She gives me hope. ( so indeed.)

Mommy: You made me, so I guess I have to love you somehow. My mom shows me you can make something out of nothing, and can make your own business. She teaches me to live out my dreams and live to the fullest, something we must always do.

“Lowpass”: My brother. What a guy. My brother inspires me to stay clean from drugs and to be safe. He shows me that you can be happy sober and that the life you lead is up to you. He is becoming famous before my eyes. I love you Nate.

Hailey: You have changed my life, regardless of what anyone tells me, you are my hero.

Delaney: D, has ready my blog a lot and given me the inspiration to keep going. Thank you. More than you know. Thank you.

Dad: Someone I grew up with. I went to work with him, and learned a lot of really cool things. My dad continues to supports my hopes and dreams.

Alexa: This kid is one of a kind, and inspires me to be myself, someone I can always be. She lets me trust her, and gives me respect. She comes to me with questions and asking for advice, it makes me stronger. I love her.

We Came As Romans: This band, the inspiration for the title of this blog. This band probably has been quoted more on this blog than any other musical artist. They have taught me, and showed me, to find faith in life, in whatever will keep you believing that we are not meaningless. Life changing.

Amanda Knorr: My sister, the one who inspires me to have a family and inspires me by the way she treats hers. One of a kind.

Dillon Di Vitale: Thank you for serving our country, you inspire me by the willingness you have to risk everything to be there for us, when we need it most.

Larry: You teach me to respect everyone and to treat everyone the way they deserve to be treated. You change my life every day, even if I forget to tell you that.

Nelson: You made me want to be at school and showed me that learning can be fun. You are such a great lady. One of my favorites for sure.

Everyone who told me and tells me I can’t: You make me try. You show me that I can do it, and that nothing can stop me. Keep doing what you’re doing, maybe I will get somewhere in life.

 

Live to inspire the weak so that they might find happiness – Michaela Faris

 

You guys keep me going. You guys make this life worth living and you guys show me who I want to become.

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Somewhere over the rainbow

Way up high

And the dreams that you dreamed of

Once in a lullaby ii ii iii

Somewhere over the rainbow

Blue birds fly

And the dreams that you dreamed of

Dreams really do come true ooh ooooh

Someday I'll wish upon a star

Wake up where the clouds are far behind me ee ee eeh

Where trouble melts like lemon drops

High above the chimney tops thats where you'll find me oh

Somewhere over the rainbow bluebirds fly

And the dream that you dare to,why, oh why can't I? i iiii