Your Time Is Up. (11.30)

         

  That's right.It's the 30th of November, which means i am done blogging for November! I have had a count down now for 5 days. I am finally done, and without you guys, i wouldn't have this awesome smug smile on my face. A smile that represents pure joy for everything i have told you, and how much of it has been received. The love and hope you guys bring me, makes me so grateful for this life, and for the chance i have to coexist with you people. This experience has taught me so much, about life, and all of the things in it.

           A lot has changed in the past 30 days. New Friends. Lost Friendship, regrowth of the love i knew i had always felt. Over this past 4 weeks, I have seen growth in my friends, and in the way i see them. I can tell i have changed, but not for you, for myself. I have become the person i aspire to be. Someone who loves you, regardless of anything anyone says about you. 

          I want to take the time, to tell you about my next project. As the holidays are coming around, I always become so thankful for all of the things i have, and makes me so sad for the people who are less fortunate. I feel like the holiday season, needs to be more about, giving to others. Not the ones who already have a warm coat to wear, or a bowl of soup to eat. But the people sleeping outside on these bitter nights. Everyone is full of joy and laughter, and i feel an obligation to fill every ones spirit, not just the ones i am friends with. Everyone deserves to feel this feeling, of the holiday season. 

         I challenge you to give up some of your used things this winter, and donate food to the food banks. I challenge you to show me what you are doing. 

      I am going to blog, as often as I can, about the things i am giving, making and showing people. I want to spread the message of love, and hope. Hopefully, by giving someone something, i can show them, that this holiday season, can be good, and the love i have for them, can make a difference. 

     I challenge you to be a part of charity. 

Read the blogs you didn't read, and confront me about any new topics you want to be discussed. 

Something crazy is going to happen on December 9th. Get ready.

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Strength in Numbers - In Fear and Faith

I am who I am, is that so hard?
To realize that we are who we are
You can't live your life, hoping you were wrong
You can follow us and join the thousand strong

And as we gather together
To face the ones who oppose us
We have one thing left to say.

Your time is up now, this is our world.

My sister, stronger than the rest. (11.29)

My sister is, everything the title says. She is stronger than anyone else I know, and has everything anyone would ever want, even if she doesn’t know it.

My sister goes to school full time, works, has a son, has a social life, a family that loves her and still fits in being awesome. 

Shanna and I have been close for as long as I can remember. We have so many inside jokes, it is almost unbearable. ( Right Captain Kinky?) We have a lot in common, and understand each other really well. She teaches me more than I even know it. She teaches me to respect my family, and other things. She teaches me that  my life is up to me, and by her example I can see the outcome of different choices she has made. She shows me how to love. She inspires me to live out my deepest dream.

She gives me advice like the sink gives you water. She is always helping me with homework, and I have returned the favor a few times. (I still don’t get math, regardless of how many times I teach her.) She is going to become a respiratory therapist, and is going to graduate very soon. So on top of all ^ that awesomeness, she is going to keep people breathing. MY SISTER LITERALLY SAVES LIVES.

My sister is a mom. Through her actions, and recent choices, her being a mom has been different than everyone else, just for a while. She knows that nothing is permanent and that everything she is doing is only for the benefit of her son. She knows what she is doing is, although hard, the right thing and will eventually pay off. More than she knows it.

If you think your sister shows up my sister, at all…prove it. This is the best living example of hope, and faith on the face of the earth.

You are my hero.

I love you Judas.

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Working Class Hero- Green Day/ John Lennon

There's room at the top, they're telling you still
But first you must learn how to smile as you kill
If you want to be like all the folks on the hill

A working class hero is something to be

If you want to be a hero, well, just follow me
If you want to be a hero, well, just follow me

Be Here Now (11.28)

            Living in the moment is something that i have always tried to do. By being "here now", I am paying attention to what is going on now, and loving the things that are going on, now. By living in the past, or in what happened before, you are living with things you can't change. This life is only what you make it, and by living here, you are going to be able to look back, and be proud of what happened, and how you lived your life.

             If you sit back, and watch your life go by, because you are more caught up in what happened, or what is going to happen, your going to miss what is happening. Your going to miss out on the life that you wish you had. If you had the chance to live your life, any way you wanted to, would you? If you had the chance to control the outcome of your life, would you? If you could be happy with the choices you made, would you? If you could take hold of any opportunity, would you? YOU CAN! You can do anything you want to, and only if you life in the now. The future will and can only be controlled by what happens now.

         Be Here Now. Remember what is going on, now. Love your life, now. Remember the good times you've had, but be here now. Good times come and go, but if you live in the now, you will always be aware of what is going on.

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Ray LaMontagne - Be Here Now

Don't let your soul get lonely child

It's only time, it will go by

Don't look for love in faces, places

It's in you, that's where you'll find kindness

Be here now, here now

Be here now, here now

Don't lose your faith in me

And I will try not to lose faith in you

Don't put your trust in walls

'Cause walls will only crush you when they fall

Dreams (11.27)

       

 “Dreams are illustrations... from the book your soul is writing about you.” - Marsha Norman 

     We go to sleep every night, with all that happened that day on our minds. We try to push it all to the side as we drift, into a place of peace, a new place every night. Somewhere that you can create things the way you want them, and make your world a better place. You may fret sleeping, because the dreams you have aren't happy, and maybe are scary. Maybe all you want to do is sleep, because that place you go, is better than the world you live in, when the sun is up. Maybe your dreams are interpreting to you something, a bigger picture than what you can see, in the daylight.

Wishing to remember the dreams you have, is one of the hardest things on this planet. Trying to re-tell your epic adventure, and giving it, in all of its glory, is a hard task, harder than just plain remembering it.

I hear about people dreaming different ways. In color. In black and white. Half and Half. People who only get to see parts. People who run through there dreams. People who don't dream. People who live a more vivid dream life than anything in real life.

Dreams sometimes show us the things we need in our life. Pay attention. Maybe someone is trying to tell you something.

         Live out your dream, the deepest ones always seem the hardest, give it a shot.

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Dreams - We Came As Romans

This is not what we were made for.
Far from the compassion we have known.
Far from the love that we have shown.
He tells me that love will endure all things.

I know that you are forever my brother.
Here I struggle with you my brother.

He tells me that love endures all things.
and I'll have you know
I'll have you know...

This is my
This is my deepest dream.
This is how I show you my love.
Beloved let us love one another
This is my deepest dream.

Blank Check. (11.26)

            

I bought the new "What Separates Me from You" CD today along with POP GOES PUNK 3! These jams are rocking. I urge you to go support A Day to Remember and the sick bands on PGP3!! (:

That's all for today.

Much Love

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Sticks and Bricks - A Day To Remember (What Separates Me From You)

I’m making a difference, I’m taking a chance
(A chance)
You can say what you want about me
But no one can tell me I can’t

Thanks Bro. (11.25)

           Happy Thanksgiving.

Today, is the day we look onto all of the things we are thankful for, and for all the great things we have. We are so lucky to be able to live in this country, and to live out our deepest dreams. We should be thankful for our famlilies and friends, and all of the people who make our lives worth living.

As I think about thanksgiving, I think about how, especially on this day we look back to think about all of the good things in life. I think we need to be thankful EVERYDAY for all that we have. I think that being thankful for what we have, is something that can truly show everyone how happy we are to have them in our life.

This life we live is only what we make it, and if you make your life something to be great full for, you need to show the ultimate appreciation for it, everyday. So many people give up there life, because they think it is the only option, and I am here to tell you, Life does get better, but i can't make it get better, we must all work as one to improve our lives. The love I have for everything in this life, is like nothing i can explain to you..

I am so great full for all the beautiful things in life <3  Happy Thanksgiving. Go stuff your beautiful faces <3

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Homesick - A Day To Remember

Everything around me seems so much different than where I'm from

And at this rate I think my fate's been sealed

This life's so unpredictable

We'll go continue to live a life that no one knows

Where's this gonna go?

Family (11.24)

            

This blog needs more than it is going to get, but if your reading it, thank you.

             This weekend, I am in Arizona, and am going to try to kick out a sick blog tomorrow, but for today, i just want to leave you one thought. Love your family. They brought you here, and they only want the best for you. They love you, and they deserve to have your beautiful light and inspiration in there life. I am great full for my family.

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Jack Johnson - Better Together

We're better together 

Inspirations (11.23)

People ask me what inspires me and what makes me who I am. The answer to this question is really hard because, everything inspires me, in one way or another. Everything I see makes me think about who I am, and who I am becoming. Often, people inspire me. Not always the people you think either. Sometimes, it is the kids who bully, or are rude. Not just to me and my friends, but to my teachers and other adults that deserve (respect.)

The following people mean something to me, and continue to teach me every day. If you are not included in this list, you still mean a lot to me, these are just the ones sticking out in my head right now.

Shanna Maretsky: My sister, the one who has been there for me literally since day one. Someone who I look to for answers, and help not only with things like homework, and future decisions, but with problems with friends and family. Issues I cannot go to other people with. She is my hero, to keep pushing forward, and to be here now.

Hunter Bingham: Your 6, be glad you’re on the list. At such a young age, this young man’s wit gives me strength. He shows me the good parts in life. He teaches me to still live as a child and to play, have fun and be awesome. I love you h.k.

Kendra Larsen: Kendra shows me that you can literally have a smile on your face the entire day. You can be serious and have fun. You can be smart, and fun. Kendra teaches me that, true friends do still exist. She gives me the chance to trust someone. She gives me hope. ( so indeed.)

Mommy: You made me, so I guess I have to love you somehow. My mom shows me you can make something out of nothing, and can make your own business. She teaches me to live out my dreams and live to the fullest, something we must always do.

“Lowpass”: My brother. What a guy. My brother inspires me to stay clean from drugs and to be safe. He shows me that you can be happy sober and that the life you lead is up to you. He is becoming famous before my eyes. I love you Nate.

Hailey: You have changed my life, regardless of what anyone tells me, you are my hero.

Delaney: D, has ready my blog a lot and given me the inspiration to keep going. Thank you. More than you know. Thank you.

Dad: Someone I grew up with. I went to work with him, and learned a lot of really cool things. My dad continues to supports my hopes and dreams.

Alexa: This kid is one of a kind, and inspires me to be myself, someone I can always be. She lets me trust her, and gives me respect. She comes to me with questions and asking for advice, it makes me stronger. I love her.

We Came As Romans: This band, the inspiration for the title of this blog. This band probably has been quoted more on this blog than any other musical artist. They have taught me, and showed me, to find faith in life, in whatever will keep you believing that we are not meaningless. Life changing.

Amanda Knorr: My sister, the one who inspires me to have a family and inspires me by the way she treats hers. One of a kind.

Dillon Di Vitale: Thank you for serving our country, you inspire me by the willingness you have to risk everything to be there for us, when we need it most.

Larry: You teach me to respect everyone and to treat everyone the way they deserve to be treated. You change my life every day, even if I forget to tell you that.

Nelson: You made me want to be at school and showed me that learning can be fun. You are such a great lady. One of my favorites for sure.

Everyone who told me and tells me I can’t: You make me try. You show me that I can do it, and that nothing can stop me. Keep doing what you’re doing, maybe I will get somewhere in life.

 

Live to inspire the weak so that they might find happiness – Michaela Faris

 

You guys keep me going. You guys make this life worth living and you guys show me who I want to become.

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Somewhere over the rainbow

Way up high

And the dreams that you dreamed of

Once in a lullaby ii ii iii

Somewhere over the rainbow

Blue birds fly

And the dreams that you dreamed of

Dreams really do come true ooh ooooh

Someday I'll wish upon a star

Wake up where the clouds are far behind me ee ee eeh

Where trouble melts like lemon drops

High above the chimney tops thats where you'll find me oh

Somewhere over the rainbow bluebirds fly

And the dream that you dare to,why, oh why can't I? i iiii



Respect. (11.22)

            I don't have enough time to go into the depth that I would like to with this topic. It is something that everyone deserves, and everyone deserves to give. Respecting someone, although not the easiest or the most comfortable, in the long run is what needs to be done. When someone asks for space, although not the easiest, we must RESPECT them and take a step back. This will benefit you in the long run, I promise. 

             Not all people will give you the respect you deserve right away. Some people want to earn the respect they are willing to give you. If you want to be a respectable individual, do the things to make you that way. Sitting back, running your mouth, is not the way to get peoples respect. Respects runs for much longer than anything else you can give someone, and could possibly change your life.

          When people have respect for me, it has a greater impact than almost anything else someone can say. When someone can understand how you feel, and respect your opinion and your side of a situation, it makes me thinks much more of them. It makes me respect them. I try my hardest to respect people older than me. Although age does not mark wisdom, sometimes looking in the footsteps of others can teach you something. That is why people older than you deserve respect, no matter what.

          I also respect people who keep there chin up, and try to be nice. It is one of the things i look for most. Some of my friends, i can respect more than others, for the way they treat me, but more for how they treat others. It makes me look twice, seeing people be nice to each other. 

             The respect you gives me, makes my heart warm and fuzzy. <3

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R-E-S-P-E-C-T - Aretha Franklin

Oh (sock it to me, sock it to me, 

sock it to me, sock it to me) 

A little respect (sock it to me, sock it to me, 

sock it to me, sock it to me) 

Whoa, babe (just a little bit) 

A little respect (just a little bit) 

I get tired (just a little bit) 

Keep on tryin' (just a little bit) 

You're runnin' out of foolin' (just a little bit) 

And I ain't lyin' (just a little bit) 

(re, re, re, re) 'spect 

When you come home (re, re, re ,re) 

Or you might walk in (respect, just a little bit) 

And find out I'm gone (just a little bit) 

I got to have (just a little bit) 

A little respect (just a little bit) 

Nature (11.21)

           

Photo Credit: My Cousin!

 This is something, that literally keeps us all alive. The most beautiful thing on this entire planet is literally ten steps away, and yet we take it for granted so much. The beauty that surrounds us literally takes my breathe away and makes me so happy every time I walk out side. I find peace in nature and am one of those people who loves doing things outside.

             Some people hate the snow, and others love it. Just like anything else, the snow provides wonderful opportunities that I can't get year around. Why not enjoy the time we have with the stuff falling from the sky. It is a gift, and we need to learn to embrace it, because, well...it's not going away. 

If your cold, get some tea. If your hot, get some tea. 

Either way, you can be happy.

I have nothing more to say. Go outside. Lets play?

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The Sun - Portugal. The Man.

If you look real high

You just might find

Sitting in the stars

Glistening, glistening

Waiting for the band to come

Just waiting for that man to come

Oh, I wonder...

Slip on down from that sun

To climb down to earth

And down to things like time

Because we are all, we are all just lovers

Born of earth and light like all these others

What? (11.20)

            Just watch this. That is all I have to say about trends and things being not popular <3 http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=UOMFDS0Cgeo

Life came through! (11.19)

          

  It's getting better. Like I knew it would. I have found faith in life.<3 When I was looking down, I couldn't see this world, and the beauty that surrounds it. The days have become longer, and the life I am beginning to lead, is nothing like I could have EVER imagined it. Ever. The way I see it, most of the time, you can decide what you want. You can be happy or you can be sad, but in the end, it is you who gets to live your life, and nobody is going to be better off being happy, that you yourself.

        If you think life is easier, crying and looking at your feet when you walk, lead that life. But, if your like me, your going to put your chin up, take things as they come, and be ready to see all the things this world has to offer us. Life does get better, but only if we want it to. Life is only controlled by the effort you put, and you make your life, however it is. 

We all have each others backs, and the chance to be WHOEVER we want to be. You can lead your life, the way you want, and the only people who can stop you, are those that you LET stop you. <3

Haters are going to hate, don't take it personal.

I hate Kid Cudi, except for this song.

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Up Up & Away - Kid Cudi

I'll be up up and away
up up and away
cuz they gon' judge me anyway so whatever
I'll be up up and away
up up and away
cuz in the end they'll judge me anyway so whatever

Ohm (11.18)

           

 I have been meditating now for, a few months, and although it isn't something I really want to talk about, I have found myself. I can honestly say, I have seen where I want my life to go, and have seen some clarity of the things that I need. I think that the way I have been changing is not solely because of meditation, but because i have taken the time to see, feel and know the things in which i have found to be true. 

As a result from all of this, I  have become more at peace with the decisions and life choices people make, whether i am included or not. I have found that, i cannot choose the path in which someone wants to follow, only they can take them where they want to go. If i want to be a part of someones life, that means I have to do the things to take me there. I have realized that I can only control myself. The friends I have and continue to make is what is taking my where i want to go. By surrounding myself with the influences i need, I find myself becoming more understanding of each individual.

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Viva La Vida - Coldplay, covered by The Dirty Heads

I used to rule the world
Seas would rise when I gave the word
Now in the morning I sleep alone
Sweep the streets I used to own

I used to roll the dice
Feel the fear in my enemy's eyes
Listen as the crowd would sing
"Now the old king is dead! Long live the king!"

One minute I held the key
Next the walls were closed on me
And I discovered that my castles stand
Upon pillars of salt and pillars of sand


For some reason I can't explain
Once you go there was never
Never an honest word
And that was when I ruled the world

Frustration (11.17)

          

 As often as I try to come off cool, and collected, there is often something I am frustrated about. I think one of the many gifts I have, is the gift to not to over react too a situation. When somethings makes me mad, i usually try to think of how the other person feels, and try to understand why they are so upset. I feel, as you learn from their perspective, you can emotionally grow for not only your benefit, but hopefully for the benefit of others. Hopefully, by becoming more understanding, people will respect you more. It is good to keep cool under pressure. It is especially nice to do when, people expect you to blow up with anger, and then you just simply give them an "I'm sorry, or I'll try to do something different next time." It blows peoples minds.

It's always the thought that counts, and the effort you put to make that person happy. You trying to make me something, is just as good as me getting it. The warm feeling i get, of knowing you care, is the only thing that matters. Thank you guys so much for all you do for me and all the support you give me.

And to all the people helping so far with my project: Thank you so much!

Forgive and Forget, return the unconditional love everyone deserves.

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Sorry- Buckcherry

I'm sorry I'm bad, I'm sorry you're blue, I'm sorry about all things I said to you

And I know I can't take it back

I love how you kiss, I love all your sounds, and baby the way you make my world go round

And I just wanted to say I'm sorry:

This time I think I'm to blame it's harder to get through the days

You get older and blame turns to shame

I am speechless. (11.16)

          

  I have hardly anything to say these days. I have a great friend. My life has been consumed by our inside jokes, and debate. Honestly, I feel like my life is becoming more and more of where I want it to go. Some serious surprises coming up for you guys (: I feel like, letting people into my life, has been the biggest blessing, and yet, some of the biggest parts are missing. Sometimes, I wonder if I should just get over it, but I really never think it will happen. Every part of my life is becoming more peaceful, and yet, nothing at all. 

Alls I know, is having these friends, is what makes me great full for this life &lt;3

Don't take this change for granted. 

P.S: New A Day To Remember album came out today. Go support.

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Lay Me Down - The Dirty Heads (ft: Sublime w/ Rome)

well its the story of the two, always on the move

they got nothing left to lose 'cept their guns and their wounds

now they're crossing borders sheriff's posse on their tail

they'd rather die together than be stuck up in a cell