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Why I am the way I am.

          

 Change will not come if we wait for some other person or some other time. We are the ones we've been waiting for. We are the change that we seek.

- Barack Obama

Assuming you have met me in person, at first glance, you can automatically see, that I am not like a whole lot of other girls. I have different hair. I wear a t-shirt, everyday. I wear vans, and usually skinny jeans. Next, you come speak to me and realize that I am NOTHING like anyone you have ever met. I understand you. I feel every emotion you have, and am aware of the help you need. I am one of the most companionable people you know, and have the heart of a teddy bear. If you spend any time with me, you realize I have a potty mouth, but don't talk behind peoples back, unless I am standing up for them. You realize this, but have never noticed it before.

Why am I this way. I ask myself this question almost every day. What has made me the person I am becoming. What has shaped me, so i cannot fit into any mold. What makes me see you different than everyone else. What happened that was so insignificant that you changed every way I thought.

Bleh.

When I was five years old, my parents got divorced. It was probably one of the most life changing moments in my life. I dress the way I do, most likley because i was raised with my brother and my dad. I grew up with all boys in the house, and in fact can remember going to school with my pants on backwards.  I couldn't have asked for a better childhood. I love my dad for everything he has given me, and for the chance he gave me to live here, with my mom. I love you pops.

I moved to Utah: Honestly, three things happened within the first 2 years of me living here. I joined a church. I found god, and found that I am really smart. These things have changed a lot recently as well. Often people think he is someone I don't have a relationship with, but the path I took to find him, is not a path i will run backwards on. I found him, and he is here. I still find myself, loving my education, and valuing it. 

I had(have) these two friends, Janie and Alexa. Literally my entire life revolved around secretly playing Barbies, and talking about our "burn book." We used to play house, and teenagers. I was always into having an imagination, and being creative. I took up playing the guitar around 9, and have really found myself in it.

 

Pretty much in 6th grade, i had this boyfriend forever, and he was a sweet soul <3 I still love him.

Around 7th and 8th grade, I started junior high. Just like anyone else who starts school in the ghetto, you see the drug & alcohol world, like nothing else. 7th grade I watched one of my friends drink until she was sick. I have seen, and done things that, although I am not proud of, make me who I am. This is a big part of everything. I have a past, and it's not like I want to talk about it, but in order for me to go on, you must recognize that 7th and 8th grade changed me. I contiued through, and became someone who nobody should become, but everyone does, for one period or another. I got really depressed and suddenly started forgeting everything. I was pretty much just this little depressed, emo, gothic kid.

I moved out to Herriman, the summer before 9th grade started, and literally had no friends. I felt like a fish on a sushi plate, so weird. I would drive back to my old neighborhood, and stay for weeks at a time. I hated it out here, I was so ready to start school. I started school and instantly realized i was in mo-mo town USA. I hated it. So much. My grades were good, but that was because I never talked to anyone. I wasn't making friends for a while. I hated it. Some point between the year, everything turned around. I got to know people. I started hanging out with friends. I felt a little more at home. Between January and March, two of my friends killed themselves, and I found one of my bestfriends, to this day. Everything about those two months is so blurry, yet so clear. I stopped hating. I changed eveything. I found someone in my life, that I still look up to. She has been one of the biggest inspirations I have, and everything we have gone through, has brought me to who I am. I could never thank her enough. 

THIS IS WHEN I STARTED GOING TO A LOT OF SHOWS!

9th grade came and went, and although I learned a lot, I was ready to start highschool.

 

Sophomore year, I wake up. I see the world, brand new. Everything is different. Tons of friends. I knew things would be good. Debate starts. Things get 100X better. Me and Kendra become friends, things become  500000X better. Seriously.

Everything has led up until now. You know I am not the same person I was a year ago, and that is something I couldn't be prouder of. 

Please continue this journey with me.

<3

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2nd sucks

You're afraid, 

like I make my deals with the devil.

You've been at it for years 

but couldn't reach that next level. 

Let's keep it real, 

this is no competition to me. 

Even if everyone around you acts 

like they don't see.

Is anybody else listening? 

Outta sight, outta mind 

is what you'll always be. 

I hold my cards to my chest. 

I laid my life on the line 

so I expect nothing less from you.

I speak the truth, 

and everybody else knows it. 

So set your ego to the side 

and just get the fuck over it!. 

Can't waist my time 

on hateful people like you. 

So keep wishing you were me, 

and I'll keep making you have to.

Is anybody else listening? 

Outta sight, outta mind 

is what you'll always be. 

I hold my cards to my chest. 

I laid my life on the line 

so I expect nothing less from you.

I just cant believe 

its really come to this 

because without me 

you would not exist.

Hey hey 

still got somethin left to say. 

Only one in the world 

I depend on is me. 

I need nothin from no one 

I take what I need. 

Get ahold of yourself 

and keep away from me.

Is anybody else listening? 

Outta sight, outta mind 

is what you'll always be. 

I hold my cards to my chest. 

I laid my life on the line 

so I expect nothing less from you.

PRAY

Pray for Ashley Mcadam, and her family. Pray for everyone.

Incentives and Love.

          I came to this eye opening realization, that without and everyday incentive, I don't do this whole, "share your feelings with the world regardless of what they think" thing...some people call it blogging. I decided that although sharing my feelings is important, going out and seeing the world, and gaining those feelings has become more important. I want to keep blogging, but seeing this world, with my best friends right next to me, literally takes my breath away. I am living the life I used to dream about as a kid. This is all I have ever wanted. Having the friends I have, has made this life, exactly what it is cracked up to be, and more. Reaching for the incentive of being happy, living this life to the fullest is in full swing.

This is the love I knew I could feel.

Love holds no records of wrongs.

Lou Cotton: We Came As Romans 

See you soon Lou.

Have fun with the Aussie's 

By far, the funniest thing I have seen in a minute or two.

Going to see BMTH, with WCAR, and ADTR on MARCH 29th 2011.

Lets hear it for the four letter acronym bands..

                                              Donate to the Hearts of Gold, over their >>>>

Imagination - Delaney

Imagination is a cool thing. We can become whatever, whoever, and go where ever we like just as fast as we can think. Children are masters of it. But as we grow, we're conditioned to believe that dreaming and believing in things that are not right in front of us is pointless. It's not. And maybe these things really are right in front of our eyes, maybe close enough to touch. It's a simple law of attraction, when your playing your fantasies out in your head, and generating the feelings of what living it would be like.. you're attracting these things into your life. Dream, and believe, and think positive thoughts and your life can turn into whatever you want it to be. 

But, that's just a little philosophy coming from a 15 year old. :D

-Delaney

This is has been in the works for too long, and  by letting a guest blog happen, I feel I am showing you that i am not the only person with out stretched outlooks on life. Live out your deepest dream. Imagine a world, the way you want it. Be whoever you want to be. Stand for what is right, in your heart. We are all humans and deserve to be renewed. To change our ways. To be aloud to choose.

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Imagine - John Lennon

Imagine there's no countries
It isn't hard to do
Nothing to kill or die for
And no religion too
Imagine all the people
Living life in peace

You may say that I'm a dreamer
But I'm not the only one
I hope someday you'll join us
And the world will be as one

Imagine no possessions
I wonder if you can
No need for greed or hunger
A brotherhood of man
Imagine all the people
Sharing all the world 

Hearts of Gold.

         

 Every nine seconds a women is abused due to domestic violence.

As winter rolls around, we are all looking for ways to help, for ways to donate, and for a way to make an impact. This is your chance to seize that opportunity and I urge you to do what you can.

Hearts of Gold is the name of our school winter charity drive, and had the kick off Assembly today. As much as it hurts to say it, that Assembly got me excited for all of he activities and chances we are going to have to help, and to earn for our charity. The Charity the student government chose was, The South Valley Sanctuary. The SVS is a domestic violence shelter, for men, women and children dealing with cases of domestic violence and abuse. This is our chance to help. Our chance to reach out. Our chance to raise awareness for the generations to come.

As a school, we have come together, with a cause in mind, to help as many people as we can, and to raise the money that these people need. The things they need most include, baby formula, personal care items, clothes, kitchen items, diapers and shoes. 

What can I do to help. What can WE do to help?

I know times are tough and money is tight, and only the necessities are being purchased. 

If you can just donate 1 dollar, that would help. If you donate 50 dollars, that would help. Any donation is appreciated, and all proceeds will be given to my school, for this charity.

Thank you, and Happy Holidays.

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Thanks again from all of us at HHS and at the SVS.


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